hi guys

i hope everyone is well and everyone had a great christmas and will have a happy new year.

i have sad news regarding me.

for those of you who dont know, i have very very unstable and weak shoulders. i was born with them. doing judo, squash and swimming hasnt helped me. as per the doc weightlifting was probably the best thing i did and i should never have done any of the other stuff. but at the time i had no clue i have weak shoulders.

the other day (thursday) as i was trying to get off the bed, my right shoulder popped out of the socket. this has happened quite a few times before but i am usually able to pull it back in. however on this day i wasnt and my shoulder was stuck in a very awkward position and it was hurting very badly. that is an understatement.

i was rushed to the hospital by my folks and the docs put me in local anesthesia and told me if they're not able to set it straight under local, ill have to be put in GA and a 5 hour operation will take place. luckily for me they were able to do the job under LA.

well, my arm is right now in a sling and will be for the next 10 days. in may when i come back i will be having the surgery.

i cannot express how upset i am and how heartbroken i am. i can never play squash, tennis, racketball or workout again. i dont know what i will do but i have an appointment with my doc on monday. hopefully there is SOMETHING i can do to keep in shape.

this doesnt really help, but atleast i can look back at this in the future and know that while i was weightlifting i was able to deadlift 365 lbs, squats 315 and bench 225. all at the age of 18 after only 14 months of serious training. i was right, as i read this, this doesnt make me happier..it just makes the pain worse.

this thread will probably have my last few posts because after this thread is over and pushed away into the darkness i wont be posting on this or any other board ever again. i plan on deleting all my links to all weightlifting sites because i need to move on. i was never a great athlete. i am not built to be one. weightlifting was all my body was made of - with all the genetic limitations and obstacles. now even that is taken away from me. i dont know what the future holds for me, but i plan on doing something. i wont allow myself to become a fat fuck again.

i know that while i was here i loved the place and thanks a lot for making this my home. but its time for me to move on.

i am overcome with grief.

thank you

Anuj

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