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Originally Posted by 0311
it sounds like you're giving up too quickly.
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thanks for not playing the sympathy card sir. i didnt write this to say "feel sorry for me"...
sir, i am not giving up. quickly or otherwise.
its like a string. if u pull too hard, it will break. u will tie it into a knot. then u will pull it again. again it will snap. then u will tie a third knot. and it will go on and on till in the end all u have is a missing string and a whole bunch of knots. i dont want to develop athritus - which is what will happen if i push this any further. i dont want arthirus at the age of 19 or 20. i want to live a long and happy life.
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Originally Posted by 0311
I assume you still haven't spoken to your actual surgeon yet, which has the final say in that regard.
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ur right. which is why i am still ebing reserved. perhaps ill be able to find exercises i CAN do.
i have a feeling ill be able to do SOME of the following:
squats (big maybe)
deadlifts (huge maybe)
pull-ups
barbell curls
v bar rows
leg press
calf raises
leg curls
abs
skull crushers off the floor..
i am not sure, but in the next 2-3 days ill find out. what is more imposrtant is that if i cant lift weights there has to be SOMETHING i can do. i need to find what that is.
u dont know how much ive wept over this. i had so many dreams. u know, it would be simple if i said "i made the following mistakes: blah blah blah". but i didnt. i trained smart right from the fucking beginning. i didnt do the stupid shit ppl my age do. i trained with good form too. yet i go fucked over. u dont know how lost i feel.
i just dont want to do something whcih will affect my family life in the future. i want to become a dad who is capable of doign things like hiking, etc with his son. i dont want to be fucking criple. my dad is too busy making movies and winning awards to be there for me all the time, but i wanted to be able to lift with my son. i know im only 18, but i am different from most 18 year olds. i am a decendant of the freedom fighters of india. i am more progressive in my thought than most people. i was brought up to be progressive. i dont stick to one set of rules. i know im a kid and all, but i had a lot of dreams. u dont see any indians on these weightlifting forums do u? there are only 5 indians including me on all top bodybuilding boards put together. 1 guy is on steroids. 1 is a fat guy who has been trying to lost weigth for 5 years. 1 is only interested in supps. 1 is a 14 yar old newbie doing buddycurls. and then there is me. i WANTED to be someone. i WANTED to show that while i am not professional, i am the ONLY one who can throw heavy iron around. but i wasnt greedy. i didnt do stupid shit. i can afford steroids and take every damn shortcut there is. but i didnt and i wont. ever.
its sad that this had to happen. it would probably hurt a lot less if i could say this is MY fault. but it isnt. i dont deserve this.
and yeah: i WILL pick up SOME sport. i am hoping against hope that i am allowed to swim free-style. if i am restriced from ALL physical activity then my world will seriosuly come crashing down. already its hanging by a sheer thread.
fuck