Time for a quick update. Things have been ridiculous the last few weeks. My stress level is insane, work sucks, I have been "given" 30 days to bring my performance up to my bosses "expectations" or I will be let go. Funny, since I'm one of the best people they have here, and he gave me no metrics to gauge my "improvements", which means they just want me gone, and there is nothing I can do. so fuck it, I've been interviewing, and something will come up. It just sucks cause all this stress is killing me, it sapps my energy, and my willpower.

I took this week off from all fat burners, and managed to drop a few lbs. 258lbs upon waking this morning, so I'm pretty happy about that. I'm suprised since I havent been doing any cardio, but I just havent had the energy.

I also dropped the Xfactor after a week or so. the back pumps were so bad for me that I could barely sit in my chair at work. I would wake up from back pain durring the night. I dont think i will be playing with this stuff ever again. good thing I bought two bottles.

Lifting is going well, increasing wieghts gradually, and my shoulder is still improving little by little. given the issues I have right now, I really cant be unhappy with the progress I'm making. I just dont know that it will be enough to reach my goals.

Liftin

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I don't do this for my family, my friends, women, accolades, pride, or ego. I do it for me and no one else, its just part of who I am.