hey man i know what you mean about something always going wrong when you set off but the fact you are still doing something shows character think how easy it would be for you to blow off the lot completly yet you dont. thats heart man. im sure youll feel better soon and youll be right back on that horse (or after your last comment back on the ox lol) keep your chin up fella i know youll get there you lot are solid. all the best.