I hear ya monsta, I'm kinda the same way, i dont lose my temper much, but when i do, it becomes primal instinct. I've blacked out a few times when in altercations, only to realize that i was still standing and the other guy(s) were not. Its like having a very long fuse, but a really big stick of dynamite.

its a pretty scary feeling, so I keep away from dumb shit as much as possible. but some times you just cant help it. I would think that keeping a shotgun in the house is the best idea for home defense.

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