i feel you. E. since i jacked myself up and really couldnt do nothing else i just looked forward to it. due to injuries couldnt do what i want on anything else so just doing something like this without working toards it really had me a little amped. im thinkin to myself if i can do this barely being in the gym, i can only imagine what i can do with being in the gym on a regular and a good routine.

and i have a tendency to always try to tough shit out. even when i was in high school playing football. my teammates had to snitch on me and the coach made come out. even in practice. from me toughing through everything and never missing shit, it all just bumbs me out.

especially since i feel like i made a fool out of myself today. but i see what you are talking about. the thing is i never have anything to prove to anyone. i just want to prove shit to myself which winds up getting me in a lot of trouble.

today was my last time doing that though. my trying to be "tough" has done me more harm than good. im takin your advice.

i have more goals than just doing this on the bench. this is just one of many, but by no means is this over. i will be getting this very very soon. i will evaluate my body as a whole to see what kind of routine i will be doing and once im done with that routine. ill be back in this thread

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OH SHIT!!!! ITS THE COPS!!!!

You clearly don't know shit about fuck - KANE

You're not some sort of mystical creature that is immune to a training effect- KANE

I wish there was an entity that represented the term "injury" if it was, i would find it and beat the living shit out of it!!!!!

yes......i just type and press enter, i dont proofread i did enough of that in college. you know what i meant when i typed it anyway