Yeah well my name says it all. I'm a thin dude and I'm extremely motivated to get in decent shape and begin feeling good about my physical self. First, I will introduce myself via current size/training routine/etc and will follow up on that with my goals and questions for you guys.

I'm 6'2 and about 145lbs. I have absolutely NO fat on my body. I can pinch the skin on my stomach as thin as a piece of paper (not really...but you get what I'm trying to say).

My only weight lifting exprerience has been acquired via training alone in my home with free weights ranging from 15-40 pounds (will be purchasing heavier hand weights in the near future). I have been working out (or maybe doing what I THINK is working out) for about 3 weeks now and I already feel stronger, however, I haven't seen a very large difference in size (clearly).

I typically perform chest excersises on my back without a bench (I would love to find a cheap, used, simple bench to add to my arsenal..still looking though). I perform dumbbell flys and simple bench press-style lifts. I do about 2 sets of 10 every day (and taking one day off per week). I also perform shoulder presses, bicep curls, lunges, and a few other tricep/back workouts that I don't know the name of. I perform about 50-60 push-ups a day in different positions. I am aware that rushing through a routine can negatively affect results. So, since I don't have very heavy weights to choose from, I REALLY try to get the most out of every rep and do as many as I can without killing myself (I typically stop one rep before "failure"). I find that I am sore throughout the week, however, it isn't painful and never hinders my ability to do anything else. Basically, I'm not killing myself here.

My goal is to be 20-30 pounds heavier and feel/look a little stronger by the beginning of next summer. I naturally have pretty high motabalism and I am also a smoker (that doesn't help). I do drink a lot of milk, eat a lot of eggs (every day actually), red meat, chicken, nuts, and I drink this nutrition shake called "ensure" that contains about 9gs of protein (its more for nutrition and maintaining weight). I drink about 2 of those a day as advised by my doctor for maintaining weight.

I have NO IDEA how many calories/grams of protein I consume every day. I do not eat fast food, but I definitely have my fair share of junk. I feel as though I could definitely consume more (good) food easily as I'm 21 years old...and well...guys at this age are always hungry regardless of size.

So my questions are:

Do I HAVE to go to the gym to get the results I want? Would purchasing a small bench and heavier weights be sufficient enough for my goals?

Should I try to find a new protein shake that I like that contains more grams of protein?

Since I can't perform a proper squat/bench press/dead lift (due to lack of equiptment and weight) am I essentially wasting my time trying to hit my goal when I can't perform the large muscle building exersises? Or can an 80lbs squat, 80lbs benchpress/flys, 80lbs lunge be enough for me for at least the next 2 months (until I'm strong enough to need more weight to get stronger)?

I typically work out every muscle I can during my routine. I do not isolate. I do, however, work harder on some muscles and easier on others in a cycle (day to day) depending on how I feel and what my body is telling me. My question here is: Am I an idiot? (I'm predicting a huge "YES")

Thank you very much in advance for any help you can offer me. I have never been a part of a forum so I hope this turns out to be a good and useful experience.

-Very Thin