You know, I feel ya. It's a great goal. But you don't have anything to prove. Unless you plan on competing it's not something to hurt yourself or beat yourself up over. There is always something you can get stronger on RIGHT NOW and feel good about that while your working on the bench or whatever.

I mean the other day I was doing Anderson front squats and it was this amazing day...I just shot up about 50 or 60 pounds on them just like that. I felt great about it.

Then I did some banded de box squats. And I felt so damned powerful I decided to hit some heavy too. And they felt like feathers so I decide to go for a pr. Haha. And i missed it. Didn't hurt myself by I had convinced myself it would be easy, lol. Forget all the other work I had just done!

So I got all pissed about it and had to catch myself..I had just set a HUGE pr on the front squats and had a fantastic session. I know it's worse when you a plan to hit a big max in advance but if you can always tell yourself there are plenty of other walls to climb, it helps.

i feel you. E. since i jacked myself up and really couldnt do nothing else i just looked forward to it. due to injuries couldnt do what i want on anything else so just doing something like this without working toards it really had me a little amped. im thinkin to myself if i can do this barely being in the gym, i can only imagine what i can do with being in the gym on a regular and a good routine.

and i have a tendency to always try to tough shit out. even when i was in high school playing football. my teammates had to snitch on me and the coach made come out. even in practice. from me toughing through everything and never missing shit, it all just bumbs me out.

especially since i feel like i made a fool out of myself today. but i see what you are talking about. the thing is i never have anything to prove to anyone. i just want to prove shit to myself which winds up getting me in a lot of trouble.

today was my last time doing that though. my trying to be "tough" has done me more harm than good. im takin your advice.

i have more goals than just doing this on the bench. this is just one of many, but by no means is this over. i will be getting this very very soon. i will evaluate my body as a whole to see what kind of routine i will be doing and once im done with that routine. ill be back in this thread

don't be so hard on yoself suga.

but...

have you really been doing any tricep training except for pushups?

On the brightside of things, I did add you as a friend today :D

nope. i really havent been doing a lot to be honest. only like 1 or 2 weeks i did push ups 3 times. and once in a blue im just in a pushup mood and did them like once a week. i did them once or twice a week to rehad my shoulder but that wasnt even every week.

honestly i wasnt in the gym to tough before i tried hittin this heavy. if you look back at all my post their werent that much and thats all i was doing.

i honestly just told myself "hey i can do that" and i guess i came close.

so all in all no crazy work. just push ups here and there. and gogin to teht gym and trying this. and some leg rehab shit.


and in all honestly i still may be able to get it. honestly my neck hurts to yawn, sneeze and open my mouth to eat. just figured if i got past the lift of i would be ok.

but fuck it. im gonna get a routine together byt next week. stick to it then come back..

i feel so warm and toasty inside now :biglaugh:

That could just be a torn muscle :biglaugh:

look at it like this: "i want to run the 100 meter in 8 seconds."

but i don't do anything to support it. and then i go try it. and i can't do it.

what is there to be disappointed about :)

yeah i feel you. but this thread aint dead yet. so ill stay at it