Anuj, I just read through all of this, and I have a few words of advice when you return to the states. I am no stranger to depression, so I understand how easily that can get out of hand.

here is what I do when depression starts to really effect my workouts. When your sitting there, looking at your pre workout shake, thinking "man I dont even want to go to the gym, I really just want to curl up in bed" ... grab the shake, go stand in front of the mirror and get pissed off. Get mad as hell at yourself for feeling like that, and gather all that frustration and anger up, and then use it in the gym. Just go crazy on the wieghts.

after that not only will you have gotten in a great workout fueled by rage, but you will have pretty much worked your way out of the depression. Training in that state will booster your mental healthy exponentially.

Give it a try, it works for me. Although i am prone to aggression and anger, so it may be easier for me then some. But if you dig deep enough, its there. Dont let depression get you down, let it light your fire. I hope this helps brotha.

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