I am a bit desperate for help. Here is a little about me. I started as a small skinny kid but around 12/13 I started to get big and I kept getting bigger. My mom is big and my dad is tall but not big. I got my mom's genes I guess. I am engaged to a beautiful Latina woman and although she tells me constantly that She likes me how I am and that I'm sexy to her, for me It is not what I want. I hate how I look in the mirror and I hate that I don't want to go to a water park because I want to keep my shirt on. I need to make a change and I stumbled on this site and I was hoping that I could get some help. I want to loose weight and tone up. I'd rather be Thin and have a few muscles but Muscular definition is not that important to me. I know this will have to be something that I do for myself and not for anyone else. I'd rather tackle this myself but I know my girl would support me. I just don't want my boobs to get bigger than hers.
I am 24 years old about 280 Lbs 6ft and of South American Descent. I have a gym at my college Local to me and I have about 1.5 hours a day to work out at that Gym and then I can work out at home. I don't have much of a home gym but I am purchasing a BowFlex and some Free Weights in a week or so. I have made some changes to my diet already but I don't know if I'm doing something wrong or potentiall harmful.
I am drinking water and only water. I purchased and only snack on fruits, (apples,peaches,berries,grapes.)
I would appreciate some help but if no one can then I understand and I guess I would have to take my plight someplace else. Help for me is a guide, or just a friendly point in the right direction. I am willing to put in the work to accomplish my goal.