Stims will have that effect, especially after staying on them for extended periods. I would stop taking it, possibly pick up some Reset AD by Palo Alto Labs, it helps me with adrenal fatique.
And in the future, I would only run stims for 2 weeks on 2 weeks off at the most. Your body can only take so much.
I don't do this for my family, my friends, women, accolades, pride, or ego. I do it for me and no one else, its just part of who I am.